The after math of Domestic violence is a closet in your mind. One of those closets that’s packed to the brim with so much shit, when you open it, everything violently tumbles out. You’re left sitting there with a mess in front of you and it’s… Overwhelming. You’ll never get this closet organized, it simply has to stay shut. Forever. … Read More
Will Power
Willpower isn’t a trait, it is a choice. It can be broken down by hardships and trials or you can chose to use these moments to strengthened it. Like steel placed in the flame and repeatedly pounded. Willpower is forged in the moments where you feel the weakest, when you fear the next storm may put out the fragile flame … Read More
I just need to be unfiltered and real.
I am a work in progress not just physically but emotionally, I don’t think it is beneficial to dwell on ones flaws, I do think it is appropriate to be honest with ourselves. These last few weeks have not been easy for me. My mind has been a drift in the murky waters of negative self talk, criticism and self-doubt. … Read More
When your thighs touch, the struggle is real.
I think it is fair to say that the hot and humid Virginia summers and chubby thighs don’t mix! In an effort to combat the Level 10 chafe, that was ruining my summer, I discovered baby powder. You see, baby powder can be a real life saver for anyone with thighs that touch! But there are rules for this life hack. 1. Never … Read More
I Want to Know the Real Unfiltered You
Challenged by small talk, a barrier to depth, a diversion from what is real. I want to hear your truth, don’t sugar coat it. No matter how blunt or raw, I want to hear your thoughts. I want to know the real unfiltered you, so that I can appreciated you for all that you really are. I am not interested … Read More
The Aftermath of domestic violence
I can’t even look at you.There is nothing left of the man I once knew. I held on so long, it was illogical. Fingertips clinging to the cracks in our foundation. Not willing to let go unable to fail. I made a promise for better or for worse. But that promise was my burden to bear, not hers. I knew … Read More
Life after domestic violence; learning to trust again.
Vulnerability a weakness I simply can not risk. I consider myself to be a strong woman, I make no time for self-pity. So long I spent with painful secrets, refusing to be defined by what had happened. I worked so hard to file each struggle away, tightly sealed and stuffed away in the dark and dusty space of my mind. … Read More
A Mothers Worry
I carry so much guilt and worry. How will my decisions impact and affect you? It was never a part of the plan, the conflict you face with a split family. I pray I will make the right choices, keeping you safe while affording you the right to love, untainted, whom ever you chose to love. I seek to always keep … Read More
I am not perfect I am real
I have laugh lines and crows feet, because I am no longer 20. I am good with this, my 20s were a hard time for me and so far my 30’s have been way more fun, so bring it on wrinkles… Just make sure you tell a good story of a life full of love and good people. My skin … Read More