I have done it before on my own, “Transformed” losing over 100+ after each pregnancy. No program, no supplements, I didn’t venture into the gym for the first time until after my second baby when I only had 20 lbs left to lose. The first two times, it only took me a year to get back to pre baby weight but a little better each time.
I want to try something new. Working out in the gym with 80 lbs more of me then the last time I was regularly at the gym, has been a very humbling experience. My insecurities are through the roof, my self-esteem and confidence feel like a faint memory. I also know that it will all be worth it!
I am happiest, when pursuing a goal and when I am healthy and strong. Making time to physically challenge myself is the most rewarding and sustainable way to meet my goals and transform. Not just my body, but my health, habits and mindset. I want to share my journey and how normal the highs and lows are. I want to make the process of changing your habits and owning your health less overwhelming for anyone standing on the starting line for the first time.
I fully understand how overwhelming it can be, day one staring in the mirror and realizing just how far you have to go. This is where mindset can make or break you! Transformation is not about the big number you want to have shed by the end. It is about all the small day-to-day goals that you will set for yourself and celebrating each success. Having confidence that in the end each small change will add up to a happier, healthier stronger you then you can imagine.
When I first registered and saw so many of the other competitors with their fit to slightly fluffy bodies, I immediately began to second guess myself. My mind raced with insecurities and self-doubt as I compared how far I have to go against the previous years winner and the community of people taking on the challenge with me this year.
Then it occurred to me… so what if I don’t “win” the pot at the end of the rainbow, I surely wont lose anything by putting my self out there and giving it my all. I am not in competition with them, I am in competition with me. I want to see what I can accomplish in 12 weeks with a specific plan and focused drive and dedication.
I am not getting up at 5:30 in the morning, despite having a baby who still doesn’t sleep through the night, to win a prize or for appearances.
I am doing this because it is my job to model for my daughters that they are in control of their bodies and what that body is capable of. That food is not a tool of torture for social confirmation of worth or emotional consolation. Food is fuel to empower their bodies to be strong and take them on any adventure they may choose to pursue.
I am doing this for me. As a mom and wife it can be easy to lose yourself in the ever-present needs of everyone else. Taking time for myself to pursue goals and make myself physically stronger also makes me mentally stronger and leaves me with more to give back to those I love.
I am doing this because I know how good healthy, strong and confidant feels. I know how rewarding it is to do more than you thought you were capable of.
So here we go 2016, I look forward to seeing what you have in store.
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